sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal
“I am homesick for a place I am not sure even exists. One where my heart is full. My body loved. And my soul understood.”
– Melissa Cox
“I’m homesick all the time,” she said, still not looking at him “I just don’t know where home is.”
– Sarah Addison Allen, The Girl Who Chased the Moon
“I want to go home, but I don’t know where it is.”
– Orson Scott Card, Ender’s Game
“I want to go home. I will always want to go home. Even when I am at home I want to go home. But I’m not really thinking of a place, it’s more that feeling of everything finally being over, of seeing the light in the windows of your house on a cold night, of being safe, the relief of leaving a party you’re not enjoying, like when you felt sick at school and they sent you home, or when you got upset at a sleepover and they called your parents. I want my mam to come get me. I want to go home.”
– Via: “seashellronan” on Tumblr
Natalie Díaz, from “American Arithmetic”, Postcolonial Love Poem
[ Text ID: I am doing my best to not become a museum / of myself. I am doing my best to breathe in and out. ]
― 1Q84, Haruki Murakami
[text ID: I am nothing. I’m like someone who’s been thrown into the ocean at night, floating all alone. I reach out, but no one is there. I call out, but no one answers. I have no connection to anything.]
Dulce María Loynaz, tr. by James O’Connor, from Absolute Solitude: Selected Poems
[Text ID: “I never call your name, but you are in me like the song in the nightingale’s throat even when it’s not singing.”]
Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak; “Theories about the universe”
[Text ID: “When I want something / with my whole being, and the universe withholds it / from me, I hope the universe thinks to herself, / Silly girl. She thinks this is what she wants, / but she does not understand how it will hurt.”]
“I am tired of being a person. Not just tired of being the person I was, but any person at all. I like watching people, but I don’t like talking to them, dealing with them, pleasing them, or offending them. I am tired.”
-Susan Sontag, I, Etcetera: Stories
— Mark Strand, Seven Poems
[text ID: A scar remembers the wound. / The wound remembers the pain. / Once more you are crying.]
Blythe Baird, from If My Body Could Speak; “Concerns from a hot-boxed jeep”
[Text ID: “How do I stop / carrying everything / that had ever / happened to me?”]